Saturday, August 27, 2005
This entry is about my personality.
I guess all who noes me noes this. At times i am noisy and at some times i am quiet. I am noisy most of the times in jc cos i want to have fun sometimes. When im quiet, i guess i wont even smile. I am realtively unfriendly if u compare me to other people. I am not very helpful but i help. Quote fr yiyang's blog: i am cold. I agree. I AM cold. I cant seem to give a rose to my mother on mother's day. I cant kiss my father freely when he comes back from work. I disregard everything unimportant and dun giv a hoot abt other people that walk past me. Only if that is people i know. I cant go around and socialise. I am not cut out to be an ogl, although i wanna be one.
I crack lame jokes, only when the environment permits me. In this case of jc, the environment is rather suitable. Other than that, i guess nth that comes out of my mouth is useful. In consoling other people or helping people. I have a dead mind. I jus cant feel how people feel. That is why i am insensitive. Being called cold, i am used to. Even the 16 PF personality tests says i am for a scientist, not a politician or jobs that require higher thinking. Dun blame me for being insensitive, my personality is shaped from the very family i am born into. A cold family produces a cold offspring, no surprise. I am not sad, i am used to it too. Other incidents also happened that caused me to be me. Shant elaborate, or else i will collapse. I have a sad past, nobody noes. It is hard to put a smile on your face everyday. I guess i am trying.
If at times u find me unbearable, jus tell me. Currently, I am real glad to have a bunch of friends. It allows me to have fun most of the time. I was worst in secondary school. Fat, nerdy, quiet, short-tempered, if u would like to say, autistic. However, I was not long ge, i was jus a quiet person that does not care about everything. People change, I am changing. But i still have that personality in me. Sounds vague but its going to reside in me for the rest of my life.
In a group of friends, there is always a joker, a mischievous, a lamer and a listener. I guess i am the listener.
white.
|8:28 AM|
