Saturday, December 31, 2005
11.50 of the last day of 05, i was at highway overlooking the river. So many thoughts rushed through my head. The thing i did, the things i could have done, the promises i made, the promises i have broken, the memories spent wif my loved ones, the memories of conflicts with other people. All this remeniscense could just take up 1 hour of ur time. I felt kinda blue all of a sudden but it was just me. Maybe cos... (cant mention it in my blog)
12.00. Without prior warning, i could hear Gurmit Singh or some other host shout Happy New Year at a stage quite far away which was followed by fireworks. I swear it couldnt have been nicer. I stood around 100 metres away from the spot where the fireworks were fired. In the midst of fireworks, everything and everybody was just quiet. I was surprised. Everybody who had their sight on the fireworks actually shared a same common thought. Everybody was in unison. They were all welcoming the new year. It was definitely a beautiful sight. And i realised tt something i found in the lines of tv serials to be quite true. I think it was posted in my previous posts. The fireworks were loud, sending shockwaves to shake the whole highway where 1000 people were gathered. Another 2000 plus lined up along the banks of the river. It lasted about 10 minutes. It was beautiful and i wished it'd be longer. I wished i could share the experience.
A new year, a new start. More things could be done. Have faith, strive on.
"Love is when u see something beautiful and u just want to share it with the other party., I wish to share it with u."
white.
|9:19 PM|
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Ah... I feel so happy. The feelings, the doubts i had in my heart, they have been cleared. Just couldnt stop smiling.
Another thing is that im happy cos our family is getting closer and closer to each other. It is just so much fun to noe strangers and get very close to them. We are even so close to the extent tt we prank call each other. (Since we din even noe each other's hp no.) Lol... Oo... i am so excited about orientation 06~!! F4 RoX ~!!
All i can say is... Daisuki... =D
white.
|6:58 AM|
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
The ogl camp has just happened. 2days 1 night, a short short camp, but a tiring one nonetheless. Had mass dance sessions which taught us new and meaningful dances. That was clearly my fav and my most hated. ( ... )
Then there was this world of combat held on the second day which totally owned. It was so fun that i didnt mind the flour and all. But during the first day, the 'series of unfortunate events' is another story. It was dirty and not very fun. Had a pretty fun time and a pretty bad injury. 3 broken toes, 1 toe disfigured. Not to mention i had no sleep. I slepy 6 hours when i reached home. WOah!
I hope, i really hope it works. It feels awkward, but i will never give up. I swear.
white.
|6:08 AM|
Sunday, December 25, 2005
*breathes out very loudly*
Christmas is over, and i cant believe how i spent it.
4.00 pm 24th December 2005
I was still in my pyjamas thinking "What a great great Christmas eve this year it would be. Its just me and my com!" I was so bored. No foam, no countdown, no party. Haiz... I am left all alone...
4.15 pm 24th December 2005
A sms read: GAIB meeting, report at 7 at Marina.(summarised version)
WOOO!!! A Gathering!! GAIB gathering combo, from 22nd to 24th... LOL...
7.00 pm to 11.59 pm 24th December 2005
Steamboat, talk cock, arcade. Err.. the norm.
12.30 am to 10.00 am 25th December 2005
Spent a night at my friend's house. GAIB Member's hideout. Totally fun. Did not sleep, at all.
10.30 am to 2.00 pm 25th December 2005
Just realised it WAS Christmas. But no point. I was too tired. I slept.
2.00 pm to 11.59 am 25th December 2005
Relatives came, played games, forfeit, ate 2 chilli crabs as a forfeit, drank 1 litre of water on my own free will.
That was my Christmas. How was urs? FUN? SURE!!
white.
|8:45 AM|
Friday, December 23, 2005
Aww... I just cant get enough of my friends... Just realised that it is so much fun being with them. Haha... We all knew that all of the [G]enius [A]ngels [I]n [B]lack members would be occupied on christmas eve and on christmas itself, which was why we decided to meet up the christmas' eve's eve. Haha... it was a last minute decision, but all of them turned up. =D Forgot to mention it was a [G].[A].[I].[B] + 1 meeting. =x
Anyway, we went to watch the chronicles of narnia. I dun spoiler u. U all want to watch go watch lor...
Friends, they put a smile on ur face everytime.
Even in times of distress, they do not leave u, they help u.
When u are sad, they do not comfort u, they cry with u.
So much for a christmas' eve's eve. On christmas eve, im stuck at home... argh... so bored... But it is different on Christmas. The white white christmas is nearing. Reminds me of the old days whenever i look at the skin of my blog. Notice that it is a "white white christmas" skin. Yea.. i changed it last year, exactly during this period. And then again, i din not change the skin for a year or so. Cos it brings back fond memories. And it brings new ones as well. So im just closing my eyes remembering the good ole' times that i have spent. Somehow i feel totally relaxed. I feel blissful. Talking abt blissful. We are all blessed. We...
Happy xmas eve to all
white.
|9:15 PM|
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Its nearing the festive season. Spirits are high, cos the feeling of christmas will just overwhelm us making us happy. Such a joyous occasion, i believe it brings back memories for many of u out there. Memories of times spent with your families, friends; basically ur loved ones. Nearing the day of christmas, it suddenly let me to remember a group of people i got so close to last year.
I just realised that all the times that were spent together were over in just a flash. Get to cherish it as it will really be over before u know it. Take Jc1 for example, a year has passed, ok actually its 7 months to be exact. After like 7 months, i din really get to know anybody real well. I was such a failure... haha... It could be because i was shy (I am ok... =P) or it could be because i din even bother. But nonetheless, yar... i din get to noe anyone to tt extent i knew what their fav food was, wat colour they like, kinda thing. So i think that actually u should handle ur time real well. Some things are meant to be sacrificed. And when they are, u get a better deal out of them; friendships, relationships, etc.
One year ago, i think i was recovering from a trauma. It was not a trauma, i was just exaggerating. But at least it reduced me to tears, sadly. It was one of the worst things that happened to me. I had to let go. But luckily i had a group of close friends that took me through the tide. Thus resulting a happy me when i stepped into the first 3 months of jjc. Of cos aft that i was still happy. I recovered totally.
One year later, i am in the best mood anybody could be. Ahh... Just breathe the fresh air. Everything just seems fun. Its a wonder that Christmas seems so fun, with that spirit and all.
Live for the moment. =D
white.
|3:25 AM|
Thursday, December 15, 2005
I feel so isolated from the world. The holidays are just wasting ur time. But luckily its coming to an end. I look forward to school, i look forward to a hectic life. Probably because i am used to it. But actually i look forward to sch for another more impt reason besides frenz. I look forward to life.
white.
|4:35 AM|
Thursday, December 08, 2005
7th December, a very very special day. A day commemorated for the victims who were bmbed in Pearl Harbour by the Japanese Kamikaze Zero Fighter Plane Group. This was one very very special day, it taught us a lesson to be prepared for anything that may come. Just like the sailors aboard the ships at Pearl Harbour, they were not ready for battle when the attack came. Therefore resulting in more casualties than expected.
But actually, my main point was: 7th december is my birthday. Above part was crap lar.
7th December *2005*, a day that i will always remember. It is the day i got to spend time with my loved ones. =D This year, it was quite different from previous ones.
In the past, 7th december was just another casual day for me. Since primary schools, because my b'day was in the end of year holidays, i guess some of my frenz dun even bother to remember. SO there were no cards, no greetings, no phone calls, no handphones to sms, etc.
"Just another day", was the norm on my birthday. I have always seen children in tv dramas having glamorous birthday bashes and iniviting lotsa friends and played lotsa games. Oh man it looks fun. But when i got older, i laughed at them. Of all of the people invited, how many is the birthday boy's/girl's true fren? I laughed at their naiveness. But actually, i was laughing at myself. I had none. No greetings, no wishes. I was invisible in class? in school? Did i do anything wrong to deserve this. I was jealous.
Every year i would only celebrate my birthday with my family. A cake and a song does it. My birthday's over. And every year i will not be looking forward to it, cos im jus expecting another different cake.
But this year is different. I get to spend it with my family, my friend and my dar. I celebrated it with the most impt people in my life. This year there was no cake, but for some reason i was happier. Had a birthday dinner on the 6th with my family at a place which serves my favourite food. We went Sakae Sushi. For those out there, if u still duno, my fav food is jap food. Had such a spread. The servings were huge, so was the bill. But it was my birthday, there was no restrain.
On the 7th, i spent the evening to night time with dar. ( =D=D=D=D )
From 11 to 6, PM, i spent it at jonathan's house. LOL, we did everything possible. Lf2, Sega, N64... OMG~!! Went home and slept till 2 nxt afternoon. What a day!
This birthday is the best birthday of my life. In addition, i received so many greetings from all my frenz!! I was so touched they remembered. Real touched, there was msn, letters, sms and calls. Time was spent with them and balanced out appropriately. I am so glad.
However, however, i failed in my mission. So sad. I will, i will zettai ( zettai=definitely in jap ) try and do it!!
white.
|6:54 AM|
Monday, December 05, 2005
And i thought holidays were the most fun times of our lives. I was wrong. Staying at home doin nth sux. I have a computer, but theres no real games to play. Of cos i went out with my frenz and all, but when u stay at home, it is just plain sian. Haiz... i cant wait for school to start. But most probably when school starts i would change my mind.
I realised that, actually comp games just eats into ur life. I mean, there are so much things out there that could have been done. But u just give it up for what? Playing? What do u gain from it? Money? No. Mesos? Yes. But whats the use?
I have also realised that the time spent on comp games could actualy be used for things like building relationships and chatting which will ultimately bring frenz closer to each other. I have learnt alot during the ogl outing. I have learnt that actually doing some crazy things with people u duno will actually bond u to them. And i have got to noe alot of ppl there. Without proper introduction whatsoever.
I have also realised in a good relationship, there is no use for a name. For the person will recognise u for u. No name is needed for that sense of identity. He sees u just as u.
Sometimes just sacrificing some time will bring u closer to one another. Sometimes it is good to know a different side of a person. It allows u to understand him/her at a different angle and at a deeper level.
My b'dae, i think its going to be great this year tho i duno exactly where to go. Cos i have great company. Hope i will come up with sth. I really want u to enjoy. Maybe wat to do aint tt impt, *grinz*, as long as u are with me.
white.
|8:53 PM|
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Ow... my skin is red. Yep, u guessed it right. I have been sunburnt. One day out is enough to toast u to a cooked lobster like colour, red. But as always, beneath it comes the tan which is wat i like about.
It was saturday, we went for our ogl outing at sentosa. The expected turn out rate was 129, but i think abt 60 turned up? and 10+ ppl left b4 1. However, we had loads of fun dunking people and of course, being dunked as well. The first victim was hui qin. Followed by nearly everybody. Omg, Qamarul, Kenton and Naz were like dunking ppl like throwing small kids into water. No struggle, i myself was fireman-ed by Kenton but i pulled him into the water as well. Hah. Before that, me Zi Yao and Jing Hong were like, "Eh we three very dry hor, sit down safer." Lol... den somebody got dunked we backstabbed them. Hee it was fun. Then Jing Hong said, "Haiz we three still so dry" And when he said finish, he was carried by Qamarul and dunked, headfirst. We were like saluting. But all of us went into the water, one way or another.
Had lunch wif Jun Han and yin xing. Lunch break, 1 hour. Journey to burger king, 1 hour. Not to mention eating. The games that were planned were scrapped and free time!! WOO! More dunking~!! We learnt our mass dance which was like so tough but it was fun. (U mus do that sexy pose while i do the breakdance... lol...) She wasnt there the whole time, and i was being dunked in the meantime. We played soccer, frisbee, volleyball and captain's ball. So tired...
And it was so hot we went for a dip. Had a great time talk cock with samuel and si mei. Lol...
stayed till 5, from 9+. 1 whole day under the sun.
You look beautiful, rest more ah.
white.
|6:52 AM|
